I work , but hate my job.I try to find a sense of normality. My story is very much like yours. A grieving cat may go off its food. That helps . I'm in my 16 month. Do not see life as getting in the way of your love for your husband, Im sure he wouldnt want that either. So much ahead-so many great plans. I am ready to lie in bed until I am gone. You may feel guilty for being the one who is still alive. but just lately especially coming up to xmas memories are coming too me all the time. Changes in feeding times or even simply moving furniture around can cause further stress. I move from day to day and find some confidence that I have made it this far (although I dont really care) and other people have too. The grief process has been awful but I am working with it. I dont mean always, but more often than I expect to. Nothing, nothing, nothing even remotely resembles sanity for me. If there is a God please let me die. We did not have any children its just me & my 4 dogs & other pets that we both adored. My health has been severely affected with a flare up of an autoimmune disease which ironically and surprisingly has helped teach me to live more in the moment and not have too much anxiety about the future. My sincerest condolences to you with the loss of your husband. My two. He passed unexpectedly while on our first trip since retiring. This will never get better or easier I cant go outside. Two years now, I cannot believe it, one moment smiling and kissing me and the next lying at my feet, gone, no return, New Years Eve, it is like a nightmare that never ends. I just want to let you know that, youre not the only one that feels this way, and that youre not alone. I lost my son in June 2017. I would like to contact to Emma J Andrews. Im carrying my grief alone, with friends that will never understand the pain, and a sister that is suffering just as much as me. 17 months since I lost my beloved Father. tiny ways is has, just very hard to move Scars are a testament to life. This is the question I heard relentlessly from friends, co-workers . He was my everything. Although it feels like it, just know you are not alone. It never sets you up for well we knew it was going to happen. I pray all of you that God will wrap his arms around you. We were blessed with 4 children, who still desperately need me at ages 11, 9, 8, and 7. I lost both my boys 2 years ago mike 38 april 20,2016 and chris 39 september 20, 2016, I cant get over the pain my heart is hurting so much.I just want tobe with them I am having flashbacks like it happened yesterday..shock and reality has set in. I cry everyday- he was my everything and I miss our family we created together .I dont think Ill ever feel any better. For example, if DATEDIF (DATE (1969,7,16),DATE (1969,7,24),"D") returns 1/4/1900, the Date . His cancer was a rare and aggressive form and he was gone within 6 months of his diagnosis. I thank you so much for sharing. And usually in his favourite colours. I might not cry several times a day like before, there is just a constant state of sadness & loss, wanting & longing to share what we had together as loving soul mates. Mike agreed to go on another one of my adventures. At the end of the dream he touched my shoulder and said he was ok with what I was now doing (I wont go into details about that), but, to be cautious of how I was spending my money. So, I knew he was not mad at me only concerned that I take care of myself and to make wise monetary decisions. Now I know no matter what happens to me, at least mom is forever safe and even transcended death. I am learning from many of you on how to survive. The pain comes in waves. I believe the first year I was numb. When he died, a part of me died with him. He passed suddenly 7-18-16, and I still cant believe he is gone. I worry this may go on too long. Linda, I was with my husband less than ten years, I have found time together is not what counts, it is how deeply you loved. Both of my parents died on Valentines Day only difference is my Mother passed 28 years earlier this is tough for me, maybe divine intervention. The loss is so new, the first months can be spent in a blur of shock and disbelief. I too want it to end. Most days are normal; Im dating a wonderful man who also understands grief, because he lost his twin to murder 10 yrs ago, and Ive seen it hit him hard on his brothers wedding anniversary. I have had it with the insensitivity of some friends one in particular This is my 2nd Christmas without my beloved husband of 30 yrs. You see as more time passes, the enormity of the loss is more amplified. Also available in CD read by the author. He was so close to me just like a little brother. But until these well meaning people develop a great deal of empathy, they just dont get it!! I know the biggest star in the sky that is shining the most is you. Stay open to the idea of hope and optimism but dont set a timeline for its arrival. I thought the second year would be easier. My mums been gone 7 years tomorrow she passed away 23/03/2005 due to melanoma cancer I was 13 years old I was very young and that was . She battled stage 4-5 cancer for fourteen years. Someone once said you never get over it I wont give you any of the tired and pathetic pieces of common advice. I dont know. Now Im at Year 4. Im now starting the 2nd year after the sudden loss of the love of my life. He was so caring , so sweet man . I know Im late to this post but I lost my husband six months ago. We got to have him with us another fourteen years or so. I said no, Im still married. At 4 days old she came into my life as a bottle baby, I fought so hard to keep her alive, she defied the odds for 27 months. I wish that I could help. You are always in my mind and I know you're watching over me and mum from above, it makes me smile even though I am sad. The last few years have been a blur of trauma and sadness. If I could have taken all her pain for her, I wouldve. He told me, thats how you cope with grief, you need to talk about it over & over until finally you stop. May God help us all. I have been dating someone for six months now. I miss him deeply . I feel like my pain relatively same and I would like to contact Emma J Andrews. I missed Mike so much and felt guilty for his death as I had felt I should have been more responsive to Mikes medical condition. I thought they were going lock me up. Im very tired of it all. She lost her battle in May 2016. As painful and intense as the mourning was, it was when I felt closest to him and the best way I could find to say, I love you. And so, when grief came knocking I answered. Yes there are periods of NO pain but never a time without remembering as one goes about lifes daily activities . Its just over twelve months since my beautiful wife died of cancer.It was only three months from diagnosis to passing in that time my mother was also coming to the of her battle with cancer.So i lost the two most important people in my life in the same month words cannot describe hurt I felt. I still didnt think much of it, my thought was, the helicopter didnt come, so, he should be fine, he probably slipped on the ice real hard, no big deal as long as he was okay, we can handle this. I still feel that and Ive found my self seeking for that feeling that only a mother can give. I lost my sister 19 months ago and I find myself thinking okquick remember as much as you can so you dont forgetits the acorns. She was trying she (rehabs counseling etc.) you learn to live with it, this is so true. I took care of her. I live each day knowing its going to be according to the lords plan. I feel guilty that it doesnt; as if I am hanging on to the grief. But I realised life is to short. Blaming self for the death. First year, I got through, thinking 2nd year will be better looking at my 3rd holiday season without him Today would've been her 3rd Birthday : r/Petloss The first year I immersed myself in clearing things up and moved across the country to be with my daughter. Create Art. 1st 6 months was a blur whilst I navigated other peoples concern and my childs own grief. Yes Tania. Havent worked since. Biden's order included a 60-day review. I just retired early at 64 we bought a retirement home to be near daughter and grandchild. There's no "normal" path or timeline. I try to filter the thoughts in my mind so as not to feel the pain. I miss him so much and want to be close to him again. I am in Year #2 and do know how these thoughts can creep in..But sucuide leaves so much suffering for those that remain. As for grief, youll find it comes in waves. He lives through me and I am blessed and honor to say that I love him the way I did. My Father refused to talk about my Mum, I got out at age 17 & came to live in the UK. This ache in my heart is unbearable I just want to wake up and feel normal not this horrendous heart ache! longing to see them again. How so fortunate they are not to go on. Ive come to realize that it never will. We were short 5 people for holiday dinner in one year. It is hard for my Ex to deal with me sometimes because of how much she sees how much i Love my wife and wishing she was her, and how special days makes my grief pick up. I was in the a state of shock and was just sick for weeks. Wondering if others of you who are still grieving the loss of someone you loved very much, have been attacked like this, by so called friends, or family. My wife passed away just over 2 yrs ago. Im going into my 2nd year of the loss of my son August 5, w2017.. he was murdered at the age of 23. When a parent dies, guilt can become a burden because of past arguments you now regret or maybe because you think you didn't do enough to help them. I work, i come home and I go to bed and get up and do it all over. Its been A year and I cry every day and cant enjoy anything. Im at month 16 and grieving seems to be taking over my life. I dont have a lot of emotional stamina to fake it anymore. My youngest son lost his battle to addiction Sep 30 2017. He had 8 siblings, which were a tremendous help while he was sick. . Its so unnatural and wrong. I have our two dogs (my puppies that keep me going). Everyone he met loved him, he never raised his voice and was so caring. The sadness is overwhelming. I lost my mum 13 months ago. I cant shake images of her out of my head. My husband who was so much part of me died in late March this year. I will continue the fight. Some are just better than others. I truly wasnt planning to fall in love like I did with Richard. I totally understand. Ive been through Mothers Day, her birthday, funeral, favorite holiday 4th of July, and a her wedding anniversary, which would have been 11 years.
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